This post was dictated, not written.
My plan was to write my observations and journal about my experiences and catalog my questions about my creative process in my phone in real time but only post about 3 to 4 a day. That would leave a 3 to 4 day gap between what’s in my phone and what is on the blog.
Part of my reasoning for doing this was that I wanted to create a stash of posts so that on days when I was truly committed to the process or I was traveling or just emotionally drained, I could still post and not feel pressure to come up with a post every single day.
but the week of my birthday, this year was filled with moments that needed all of my emotional and spiritual attention and so I fell off of my rhythm of not only posting every day but journaling every day.
Now I’m back and the question for me is do I go back in order of the posts even though now the delay is almost 2 weeks maybe over two weeks or do I just start fresh as if that gap didn’t exist and I find another place to put them because they will feel disconnect es from where I am right now. It’s almost like I’m going back in time and revisiting the past from the future, but pretending as if it was written in the past.
This is a conundrum. I did not anticipate, but I am excited to figure it out. I’ll figure it out by the end of the day.
Maybe I should put an asterisk By the ones that have over two weeks delay and maybe the goal shouldn’t be to try to finish the post that I started over two weeks ago but just to remember as much as I can and speak to where I am now and just move on.
This blog Is truly an experiment that will not find a solid shape but continually shape shift as I investigate my own process and figure out what works best for me as I journal my thoughts and emotions and then try to share them with the world and an organized way.
This is ultimately the goal being an observer of myself and intentionally organizing my thoughts my emotions my experiences, and sharing them.